School Life Part IV

Haiz. So far, 2 weeks of school have passed... I realised something

I'm not sure whether i can make it this yr or not. The problem is some of the lecturers did not teach us properly, especially Mr Tan. I hardly understand what he teach coz he sometimes talk to himself. Another one is Mr Nee. But, his teaching is a bit draggy but luckily I can still understand.

I'm hoping that year 2 will be ok for me coz i really need to do well to pull up my GPA to at least 3.2...

Another issue is CLS Club. It has been a long time I never chat or meet them. So far, nobody informed me anything about upcoming CLS activities =.=". Sometimes, i wonder did they still care abt me or not... or is it i think too much ? or is it my fault for not approaching them ? If it is, is it because each time got event, i did not turned up ? I dun want them to have a wrong idea that i did not turned up coz i purposely did that... it's coz i was very busy with my schedule. But actually i DO want to help out anything for the club. I know that CLS club roxs... I still remember 1st day of enrolment period, they really very enthu & welcome me... But now ? =X and now the best peeps that i know in their final year...

I really want to help out in FOP 08/09, which has over but then, i really cant coz i was working at that time... Another thing is the basketball thingy. last time wed, i did want to play basketball with them and i told calvin about it but then, i really cant make it at a last min coz i got something on. I just hope that calvin did get the wrong idea here...

I really want to make friends with them but the problem is that time when i entered CLS club with jenniffer, nobody even welcomed me with open arms !!! Cindy was there. Haiz, sometimes, I just feel that i'm so lonely w/o them...

I really miss people like jia sheng, alan, azhar A, calvin,cindy,mcyy etc... but, i did talk to jia sheng about clarke quay 20 thru MSN. I just hope he stills remember that i volunteer for the event. =D

I really pissed off when i went into a site relating to attention... coz it hurts me. as if the person nvr get attention b4. if the person thinks that the person nvr get attention from the person's peers, then u are wrong !!! coz u are type where ppl adore u so much unlike me... I know ppl ard me find me boring right ? each time i saw CLS peeps together, i was like thinking about the past. Now, I'm having problems wanting to go back to the clubhouse coz i know that ppl treat me as if i'm invisible...

Sorry if the post in red hurts anybody here. It's just that I'm so lonely w/o the CLS club peeps...
Btw today, i saw jia sheng & alan in school... but i nvr call them !!!

P.S Please don't ask me any questions... thanks !!!